Raw.

We spent a week and a half together.

I spent a week and a half

being rubbed

Raw.

You saw me naked, both physically and emotionally;

stripped of all the masks and guards

I could convince my heart to release.

You didn't like what you saw

I was too

Raw.

Too much of a downer.

Great body, though.

And how you loved touching my body

You opened up my cheeks as I bent down to get dressed

"Lemme see that asshole"

You even tried to get in there,

Raw.

On my last day with you, you told me whoever got in there will be a lucky guy.

I wanted him to be you.

You'd already discarded me.

And now here I am: it's cleanse week and I'm clearing your energy.

Im drinking ginger tea and eating raw garlic to ward off

cold sores and genital worts,

gifts from you.

Eating whole foods in exchange for the cookie dough you finger fed me

Showering alone in exchange for showers with your prying eyes

I opened myself to you.

And now here I am,

Raw

and without you.